Those aren't mine......but the dreams are!

There are many things that fascinate me, one of which is luxury cars –Buggati (like the one owned by The Sultan of Johor), Ferrari, Lamborghini, Lotus and many more. Every time I came across these wonderful cars, I always wished they were mine but being what I am now-just an educator, I couldn’t afford to own one. ...even if I choose to be on diet for the rest of my life plus sell my house, my asset, I still couldn’t afford it. But frankly I have no regrets on my destiny... I’m always grateful for what the Almighty Allah has given me. True enough, an educator like me couldn’t afford a Lamborghini ,which cost millions of Ringgit but I might help my students to own one. How? By being an effective educator who can manage to educate and motivate the students to excel in their studies and thus be great people in the future – successful entrepreneurs and CEOs of their own company. Insha’Allah, I will always pray for their success . It will definitely make me happy if one day I see my ex-student driving a Lotus sports in front of me. Perhaps that time, they don’t remember me anymore but that’s ok with me... deep inside me, they’ve made me feel proud. My students can actually own what I can only dream of.
Even though it’s not a Lamborghini that I own but I’m still grateful that at least I have a car which takes me everywhere without worrying where is the safest place to park, worrying about being stolen, being scratched... ..Owning a Perodua VIVA, I have no worries.

My dear Viva, let’s us just be small and together we make ways for those big people in those big cars-hopefully those big people are my students.In sha Allah!

Golden Jubilee Reunion

Last night- the 18th of June, 2011 -was a terrific night- a night to remember. Last night, about 100 alumni of Ahmad Primary School gathered after years of not meeting one another, we met last night at Swiss Garden Hotel. Some of us had met in a smaller reunion last year. But last night was different - the reunion was organised at a larger skill - more 'lost & found' friends, more budget, more foods - it was great, it was wonderful. Imagine meeting your friends whom you havent met some 40 years ago.
I really gave a huge hug to Mano (now, Dr. Manorema Kunjapan), Mazariah Osman, Siti Ainun, Khatijah (we used to call her 'fatty bum-bum'), Musalmah and Lim Nuanget. And among the old boys who were there last night were Mahayudin'roti', ramli hassan, jalil jamil ( who still looks young),Zaharudin saleh, iskandar, Zakaria (now known as 'Dato Dr. Zakaria), Solah (also known as 'Dato Dr.'), Zaimi, Yahuda and many others. many of the boys have either grey hair or no hair left on the head! Some dont change alot but some are totally different.
I was accompanied by my husband last night to the reunion and all the way from and back to our house in Pekan,I was talking non stopped about my friends. I got so carried away with my intense feeling of happiness.

You'll always be in my heart......my darling Selamat and Thaksin

What a sad Sunday for me and hubby because today our dearest pet, Selamat whom had been with us since 2002 had passed away. He was very ill. He didnt eat for 2 days and was very weak. He died at 2.30 a.m in our bed room. We saw him struggling and fighting for his life. He made a noise -similar to a baby crying before he died. I really couldnt stop myself from crying while my husband tried to 'calm' Selamat down as he stroke lightly on its chest to release his pain.
We really love him so much. He was our first pet and he was a wild cat when he came every night to our house to sleep in our porch and ran like hell upon seeing us in the morning some 9 years ago. My husband named him Selamat because one day my husband saw a similar coloured cat was knocked down by a car near our house, my husband thought it was him, the cat that spent nights in our porch but to our surprise he came to our porch 2 night after the incident so we decided to name him 'Selamat' because apparently he was save. And from that day onwards we put something for him to eat near his sleeping area and ultimately we managed to tame him and our home become his too.
Lucky for Selamat because there was 2 other rather small cats who always come to our house too. They were sibling- the male(a siamese cat) we called him Taksin and the other one, a female cat we called Kajoi because she was rather dark. Selamat was rather founds of her and the two had babies together who were born and bred in our house - First there were Kiki and Lala (both didnt survive long) and Charlie & Combi. Not long after Charlie and Combi were born, Kajoi disappeared. My husband searched everywhere in the neigbourhood for her but to no avail. Selamat and Thasin were the ones who were responsible for the upbringing and saveguarding Charlie and Combi. They are both grown up now. And we now have another 'walk-in' cat called Kris.
Thaksin had passed away in November 2010 at Jawahar Clinic in Kuantan. He was diagnosed as having luekimia ands aids. Selamat and Thaksin were such a good cat. My husband buried them side by side.We will always cheerish,remember and love them even though they are no longer with us because they used to be part of our life, our happiness....

Happy 77th Birthday beloved mother

On 8th January, my most respected, beloved mother turned 77. For all the loves that she has given us, the caring, the nurturing (from when our feet were just 2 inches long until size 6 shoes that most of my sibblings are wearing), so for all these we threw an unforgetable birthday celebration for her.
8 January happened to be on Saturday so we took the weekend opportunity to celebrate the birthday away from home - to a resort at Batu Hitam, Kuantan. We rented a villa, owns by Black Stone Resort and spent a wonderful night there. We had BBQ there, swimming on saturday & Sunday morning at the resort swimming pool, strolling, looking for shells (& small fish) hiding between the stone (or small rock?) and playing 'Galah panjang' on the beach. We also had fun competitions like who could stand not breathing under water the longest time,(Harraz won this) the fastest swimmer (It was a draw at first between Pak Nyang (Abang Man)and Fadzil but Fazdil won it after a rematch). Despite the raining, it was a real fun. Happy birthday Mak - we hope you were happy on your birthday and will always be happy because we love you so much.

Hopping for a prosperous Happy New Year -2011

Well - another year has gone and a great new one to look forward too.

I just'd like to share a thought - When I look back over the year just gone, and all the years before that, the greatest moments of happeniness thatI recall have nothing to do with money and everything to do with experiences.

Some of those experiences cost me a lot of money (travelling for instance)but just as many cost me almost nothing, and regardless of the cost the result is the same, awesome feelings of happiness, joy and love.

My wish for this coming year is to have all the joy, love and happiness of all the years past rolled into this one new year.

Happy New Year,

A Primary School Reunion

I dont have the proper words to express my happiness meeting old friends whom I havent met for some 30 years. We were together in Primary school. Some of them still have the similar look on their face - only in the 'older version' like Amir, Tg Azlina, Radziah, Roziah, Nor Sham, Joe Adam, Joe hashim, Suhaimi, Nisah, Tay, Kiang and few others - not much 'transformation' happens to them so not that difficult to recognise them eventhought we havent met for so long.
But some like Fauzi Wahab, Shuhaimi Musa, Dato sri Ma, Dato seri Wong, Wan fauziah, Siti Badariah, Au Chi Shi, Yap and few others - they really 'transform' into someone else - be it in size or face transformation. I didnt know how they are until I looked at their name tag.
What a nice reunion at MS Garden, Kuantan- we had dinner, karaoke, made jokes, chatting . It was really fun. the dinner ended past midnight. I reached home at 1.40 in the morning with a very fulfilling feeling of happiness. Thank the Almighty Allah thet we are still alive for this reunion.

My sad story

I know I should have been happy when a very close friend of mine,Umi Kalsom Masrom told us- me and Ayu - that she'd got a job as a lecturer at UNITEN, Muadzam, Pahang. No doubt it was a very happy moment for her because she is getting a permanent job, which at KPMIM she's still on contract basis despite her many written applications and phone calls since 2008 to the MARA Headquaters requesting (or begging is more appropriate)to be made permanent. Obviously there're so many red tape, rules and what not in MARA. The good news is the delay in recruiting her made it easy for her to 'jump over' to other Institution and the happiest news is she isgetting a double pay - at 4K a month plus a RM500 monthly allowance. For this, I'm happy for her.

What make me so deeply depress are 2 factors. firstly, we have been close friends for years now - since we were crammed in the same room at the old building - then we did our Masters together and with Ayu, we were always in the same group, she was our 'pusher' who always reminded us the get our assignment done, schedule our group study - always sat together in the front row in every class. Having meals and do all the good and bad things together. Too many good memories with her. In many ways, she was naive - we made fun of her because we could easily make her believe whatever we say. we sure gonna miss her and her kids -especially Musyhid and Mukmin who were always confussed between Untie Jamie & Untie Ayu!

The second factor is why am I not as lucky as other people are? I possess a Masters degree in TESL but I am still the old me - no salary or grade hike, still a DG 41 English teacher just like the newly grad teachers. I guess the feeling of complacency in me leads me to where I am - it's NOWHERE